I looked out the window. The rain-spattered glass distorted my view on a dull grey world. It had been raining all morning. Anyone stupid enough to go out before the rain started would be long dead. I saw a text message from my friend Lily. Their mother had gone out to buy some food. They were worried. I wanted to reassure her, but I couldn't lie to her. Instead, I chose to stop living this kind of life. Terrified and anxious every time I looked at a weather forecast. I stepped out into the rain. I started to live again.